Feb 17, 2009

6 or 7 Degrees of Separation

Okay I know about the 7 Degrees of Separation thing. Some of you may know it as the Kevin Bacon theory regardless the idea is that each of us is only 6 or maybe 7 people away from any other person in the world. Pretty amazing. I had not really thought about this theory for sometime until tonight when I was trying to find one of my students on Facebook, typed in Taylor and ended up with over 500 people. I never found the Taylor I was looking for but it took 22 pages with 10 profiles per page before I ran out of Taylor's whom I share a friend or more with. That is 220 or so Taylor's whom I am connected to. Pretty amazing. Not that I know all of them, or would even really think to add them as my friend, but that they share friends with me. Such a small world. And they were from all over it, as were my friends that we have in common. It got me thinking about how easy it would be in today's world to really change the world, just because of the connections that we have at our fingertips.

So if you could spread a message or change the world with your connections what would you say or do? I want to know...maybe I can help spread your message!

Feb 12, 2009

Poke'mon ??? What theJunk?

Seriously day two of staying home with the sicko is not made any better by the addition of Poke'mon. If I was not sure what was on the screen and I was just listening I would have, no make that I do have some serious concerns about this show. There is so much moaning and groaning and then high pitched voices and gasps. Then the people have names like Diane and Butler, seriously? It is such a weird show. And then there are the random musical interludes, by some equally random singer. I know I am a 28 year old female, but this has to be one of the worst shows ever.

Feb 11, 2009

Sick Day

Every year for the past oh I don't know 6 years I think I have spent this week watching my little brother and sister. When I started I think Jordan was 2 and Lizzie was 8. (I really don't remember how long it's been) I watch them so my parents can get away and go the the Pastor's and Wives convention in San Diego.

Every year is different and this year Jordan is sick. Started with stomach issues and has morphed into a high fever and sore throat with headache. Jordan is not the kid who gets sick very often, so this is totally new to him. He is not the normal sick kid. Most kids that I know when they are sick want to lay on the couch or in bed all day watching TV or movies, sleeping or laying low. Jordan on the other hand, wanted to clean his closet out so we could turn it into a secret hide out. He also wanted to invent something, and oh yeah he wanted to be sure he got his home work and his class work done, so I went to the school before class this morning and met with his teacher, got the directions on how to construct a valentine castle, and all the parts.
We did sort through his whole closet, threw out most of the stuff, and then added an arm chair, rug and a table. Then to fulfill the invention request we made a lamp out of a gumball machine, electric parts from the garage, and marbles to look like gumballs. Of course there was some TV watching, but he did his homework while he watched.

Somewhere in there I found time to do all my work for the day.

Feb 8, 2009

Life or Something Like It

I wasn't going to write this blog, because it seemed, I don't know whiny, but now I have more so hear me out.

I went to see He's Just Not That Into You. It was funny and I would see it again, but it was also sad, true, depressing, frustrating and some how redemptive too. All this in less than two hours. I have always been one to say, why can't life be more like the movies, but after movies like this I leave wondering how could life be any more like the movies?

I sat a watched as girls like me read into what guys were or were not saying. As other women worked on steeling men that were not available, while knowing people like that or who have been on the other side of that watching their men cheat on them because of a newer model. Then there was the girl who was "stuck" in a wonderful relationship with the man she loved, who loved her, but had lost hope in ever getting married...I know too many people in this boat. And I was even moved by the guys claim that this was all he was able to offer and why was it not enough. I kind of had to agree with him at some point during the movie, as I watched "happy married's" putting up with each other but not loving each other. Then there was the girl who just wanted someone anyone, and could find not one, and the guy that just wanted the sexy girl so he could have her, not because he loved her, but he was willing to give her what "every girl" wants even though it was not what she wanted but he didn't know because he never really knew her.

As I watched all this unfolding before me, and I laughed, I also wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because no where in all of this jumbled up mess were the happily ever afters that I was fed as a child. And I realized that I didn't really expect there to be. That is really what the movie was about, He's Just Not That Into You, meaning that regardless of how hard we as females try or don't try, misread signals or lead people on, there is no fairy tale perfect way to love and be loved. It's Just Not Realistic to think that there is.

Real life is in fact a lot like this movie. Girls will always read into what a guy says and does or doesn't do or say. Girls will steal other woman's husbands and lovers, people will leave you a marriage right or wrong, some will stay in marriages or relationships that have turned out to be anything but perfect because they do not see another option or no longer care, some people will never find love, others don't want to. That is just life, and today I am kind of over it. I want to go back to the days when I believed in happily ever after, that marriage was for keeps, that divorce was a last resort and not something everyone did. I know that life and marriage and relationships are messy and not perfect, I am not asking for perfection, but I do want my hope restored. I want to have butterflies in my stomach over a guy and not think don't bother, cause eventually it will end. I want to be able to tell the students I love that marriage and happy marriage is possible.

Feb 2, 2009


So needless to say, though I am saying it anyway...it has been a long time. Sorry.

Life has a way of becoming, dare I say, more important and more pressing than blogging I'm afraid. Let me catch you up on life just a bit.

Umm never mind, it doesn't really matter suffice to say I was busy, out of town, sick and oh yeah busy. Now I am just three of those things. (I'm in town)

Today has me perplexed, for lack of a better word. I am not feeling nearly as sick as I have been for the past week, and yet, I am really light headed and kinda cold and shaky. I woke up feeling better, and I even got my walk in with Heather, then headed to my "office" (coffee cat) to spend some good quality time with God. Not a bad start to a Monday.

Then I got to my office and simple things like printing papers and such all decided to become very difficult. Printing off centered or leaving portions off all together. I was then thrown off because someone I know and love is having a bad day, and making choices that are not the best in my humble opinion. I could do nothing to sway them, so I am left feeling saddened for them. I have also come to realize that there are just somethings I cannot control, and though I have always known that, it drives me nuts when I cannot help people. As I was praying this morning I was so aware of how many people I know who are suffering, and how many more I know who are falling away from God. And it just breaks my heart. Then there are so many many friends who are in financial need, or in need of a job. I guess you could say today I am overwhelmed.

I had a great time with the students and leaders who went on the snow trip last week. God was really faithful in opening doors for communication change, but now we are back. I long to have those doors remain open for us to continue to allow God to heal and mend and work, but then I see them already closing.

So this is a sad and kind of disjointed blog. but that is how I am feeling at the moment.

quotes i love

  • "they will never care how much you know until they know how much you care."
  • "never be afraid to trust a well known God with an unknown future." - Corrie Ten Boom
  • "God doesn't need you, He loves you, that is much better."
  • "the world has yet to see what God can do through a man/woman who is totally commited to him." - D.L. Moody
  • "be who you is, cause if is ain't who you is, you is who you ain't."-
  • "some people say movies should be more like real life. I say real life should be more like the movies."